Purpose of me

Hi Reader,

I have not been writing for such a long time, but now i am just to going to scramble some of the thoughts those keep disturbing me over and over.

I just watched my college videos on youtube. Thapar and me
I dont know why, some tears came out, may be so senti, kiddish or girlish. Whats the reason,that the image of our good moments of past make us cry and bad moments make us laugh.

This keeps on happening forever, moments of delight and sorrows, and it keeps on getting piled till the doomsday. For past few days, thoughts of death are troubling me a lot. When i hear about someone dying(irrespective of age), the next thought comes, what about his all hardwork, his collections of photographs, his memories, his secrets(which will remain unknown),his unsaid stupid stories, his dreams to see the whole world. What happens to all of that?

Something similar will happen to all of us, since the day i was born, i have been thrown into this rat race, to get more and more. And this is important also, as we have to survive and live happily in the present. But argument is, why we worry so much about surviving, why their is fear to death, if its bound to come. Why we workhard, may be for
1. pride
2. money
3. status

All of these things are ok, but how does this matter. Lets take example of Hitler, he did so much to win the world(dont know moral or immoral), but everything for him vanished in just one moment. But some people argue saying, Hitler is very popular now, he is in history books, everybosy remembers him. But my point is, what the F, hitler gets from this, GHANTA? Similar for many other great people, who worked hard whole of their life and one day, end of their thread.

I know whatever i have writeen is very very absurd, my actual complain is with the creator of this world, why he/she is using us as puppets. There are crores of threads(computer jargon) like me in the world, just waiting for stop() being called. Main purpose of each thread seems to help others threads work properly, so that no exceptions are raised.(Holy shit, so technical). I believe this "Main" program should be stopped.

Till then, i/we will have to live for others, whom life we can make pleasant(or better said, their journey to death). So Forget all the bakwas i have written, as we all want to live, party hard and spread smiles around. Chill!

Dhanyavad(Thanks) for bearing me!
Your valuable comments are always welcome.